Kurt Cobain on chronic stomach ailment.
Excerpt from an excellent interview. Unsure of who conducted it, but the details say 12-13-1993 from Seattle. (Part 1/4).
Kurt had opened up about this issue a lot more after he experienced some relief.
Rolling Stone, 1993.
KC: I needed time to collect my thoughts and readjust. It hit me so hard, and I was under the impression that I didn’t really need to go on tour, because I was making a whole bunch of money…. I don’t want to use this as an excuse, and it’s come up so many times, but my stomach ailment has been one of the biggest barriers that stopped us from touring. I was dealing with it for a long time. But after a person experiences chronic pain for five years, by the time that fifth year ends, you’re literally insane. I couldn’t cope with anything. I was as schizophrenic as a wet cat that’s been beaten.
RS: How much of that physical pain do you think you channeled into your songwriting?
KC: That’s a scary question, because obviously if a person is having some kind of turmoil in their lives, it’s usually reflected in the music, and sometimes it’s pretty beneficial. I think it probably helped. But I would give up everything to have good health.
RS: Have you ever been that consumed with distress or pain or rage that you actually wanted to kill yourself?
KC: For five years during the time I had my stomach problem, yeah. I wanted to kill myself every day. I came very close many times. I’m sorry to be so blunt about it. It was to the point where I was on tour, lying on the floor, vomiting air because I couldn’t hold down water. And then I had to play a show in 20 minutes. I would sing and cough up blood.
This is no way to live a life. I love to play music, but something was not right. So I decided to medicate myself.